I think, im falling into him

I'm totally in a difficult & consufed situation.

I think, i am falling in to him. But i really dont want to jump into any conclusion as i think, it is too early for that. Eventhough i knew him since 2006, but i really cannot make any prediction about our relation ship.

Susah betul lah. The way he treated me, like i am the queen of his heart. But when i reached home & texted him, he said that i am his GOOD FRIEND. I am really confused with this statement. The way he acted, hold my hand, make me in his arm, hug me & be so romantic towards me, like i am his steady gf.

I really need some explaination for this. But as someone said to me, sometime, certain things better left unexplained. But, i need clarification & explaination towards this issue. It is killing me softly. Slowly, i am fall in to him. I am afraid, my expectation is too high toward our relation ship.

I do admit yg dulu aku jual mahal dgn dia. Masa tu sbb i fell into Kamarul. But now i am single, so does he. Masa dia ada gf dulu, dia sibuk chasing me smpi aku pun naik rimas. But now, dah terbalik. I am the one who look like chasing him back.

Maybe we are not meant to be. Coz whenever he's really into me, i left him away. When i made up my mind to accept him, he juz go away from me.

Ya Allah, i need strength & guidance from You. I need him in my life. But i am not sure is he the right one for me?

Only Allah knows everything.. :-(

Majlis perkahwinan Siti Masrini my good friend

Sorang lg sahabat baik aku, Siti Masrini Ishak a.k.a Ain dah selamat jadi isteri org..

Kronologi majlis:

21.11.09

Aku sampai rumah Ain tepat jam 7.20 malam. Terkezut gak aku tgk dier xsiap apa2 lagi. Pdhal pukul 9.00 mlm dia nak bernikah. Nany dah sampai awal dah. Dia tgh cbuk lipat baju. Adoi ai, pengantin oi! Aku dah bebel2 dgn Ain dah. After that, dia mandi, solat & Nany dah prep utk mekap dia.

Satu lagi makcik ni, adoi, cerewet dier sgt2la menyusahkan. Mekap tebal sket xmau, nak natural2 jer. Baik xpyh mekap if mcm tu. Adesss.. Mcm2 la si Ain ni. Last2 keje boleh jadi cpt, jadi makin lambat jadinya. Pukul 8.20, mekap Ain almost 70% finished. Tp ahli keluarga dier sume da bising2 soh cpt.

One thing yg aku betul2 xpuas ati, nape nak gesa2. Pdhal ada lg 40 mins lg kan. Then ble sampai kat surau tu, pak imam / jurunikah pun lambat, nak dkt 9.30 mlm baru la start nak bg ceramah akad nikah sume. Akhirnya selamat jugak Harith melafazkan akad nikah.

22.11.09

Pagi tu aku sampai pukul 11.30 dgn Lela. Wpun aku janji 11.00 pg, tp dah terlambat, nak wat camne. Btw, alhamdulillah, masa aku sampai, hampir 70% muke si Ain dah di touch up oleh Kak Saida. Mmg minah ni sgtlah cerewet smpi kak Saida soh ain duduk membelakangkan cermin. Byk sgt cerewet nya.

Tbe2 pg tu Ain soh aku jd pengapit! What??? Nape xckp awal2? Adess, nasib baik aku pakai bj sedondon. Gler betullah! Everything last minute jer. Tp alhamdulillah, all went very well. Ain & Harith xbersanding tp juz berarak ke tempat silat & makan beradap.

The Conclusion

I'm so happy that one of our Bongek dah kawin gak akhirnya. Messa dah dpt Khaleef, Ain dah kawin. Next will be Milin. Tinggal aku, Arah & Aini yg masih single & available. Xpe, ape2pun jodoh di tgn Allah. Ada rezeki ada lah, insyaAllah.

Kegilaan aku pada perfume.. :D

smlm aku tour satu Suria KLCC sambil menunggu waktu berbuka puasa..

sempat jugak aku masuk Parkson..
Parkson tgh buat sale sempena krismas..

aku mmg seorg yg gilakan perfume..
perfume skrg tgh promotion..
beli dgn harga sebotol perfume, free body lotion, shower gel & pouch or bag or belt..

quite interesting..
tp aku tgh kesengkekkan skrg..
jd lupekan dulu hasrat itu..

smlm, sempat gak cube a few new perfume..

first, A Scent by Issey Miyaki..
agak keras, tp fresh..
bg aku sesuai utk org yg lincah..

then i tried Stella by Stella McCartney..
baunya a bit fruity..
segar & juga zesty in the same time..

lastly, i tried Dior Addict 2..
keras lah baunya..
not my taste..
i guess this is unisex perfume due to the promoter..
lelaki pun beli this perfume..
but, its turn me down..

dlm tiga2 perfume yg aku cube, i like the first one..
tp xboleh lawan my fav perfume currently..
CK in2u Heat..

:-)

Lelaki yg complicated

Nape ble aku xbersedia utk bercinta, cinta tu salu dtg..
Tp ble aku dah bersedia utk bercinta, xde org pun nak bercinta dgn aku.. :-(

Guy A
Dia dah lama approach aku..
Tp aku xlayan dia sbb masa dia approach aku, waktu tu jugak aku kenal dgn K..
Ended up i chose K la..
Dia pun ada masalah dgn gf dia..
Katanya nak break up..
But he has to made up his mind..
If betul2 nak break up, why still going out with her?

Guy B
Aku kenal dier dari sorg kwn..
Kwn aku yg intro..
Xtau la dier ok ke x, xpernah jumpe lg..
Tp takat ckp kt phone & sms, mmg baik mamat ni..
Tp aku xde perasaan kt dia..
Umur pun mude sethn dr aku..
Aku pun kurang berminat dgn dier sbb cara dier mcm xmatured betul!
Bercinta cara kampung! Kene report buat ape la..
Tu belum jd gf lagi..

Guy C
Yg ni juz nak flirt jer dgn aku kot..
I used to b his gf, tp after 3 month of our relationship, dier MIA..
Now dia dtg blk..
Tp aku bengang, dier mcm takut nak commit, tp dlm masa yg sama dier ckp rindu aku la..
Very complicated..
Mcm td dier sms aku, then aku ckp dgn dia ada guy lain approach aku..
Then dier ckp how come got other guy?
I replied, why? I am single.. So it's not wrong what!
He replied back, "I am LIKE YOUR BF.. How can u got other guy?"
Ape maksud LIKE YOUR BF? Maksudnya proxy bf ke? Ke nak jadi bf, tp xsure? Ke hampir2 mcm bf?
Mmg coward guy la ko ni!!!

Complicated betul.. How i wish i can meet a guy that i really love & he also loves me too.. Yg plg penting, dia mesti ada niat ke arah perkahwinan, boleh bimbing diri aku, boleh menundukkan aku yg sememangnya panas baran ni & plg penting berniat nak bina keluarga..

Bila agaknya???