Nasib badanlah kan. Ada majikan, majikan kedekut tahap cipan.
Just now, Rusydi (my co-ordinator) ngadu kat aku. Bos suruh Kak Ani (secretary dia) utk re-schedule blk jadual mileage claim. Dia suruh Kak Ani kurangkan mana2 mileage yg boleh dikira dekat & find alternative way utk ke satu2 tempat tu. Kalau boleh, cari jalan yg xpyh lalu hiway, xpayah byr tol sume tu.
Bullshit gler! Hangin lak aku. Nature keje aku ni, kene selalu kuar appmt kat luar. Buat marketing sana cni. Tp kalau dah boss kedekut bab claim pun, ni yg buat aku xde mood nak buat kerja dgn sebaik2nya ni!
Rusydi ckp, kalau kedekut sgt. Sediakan kitorg ni satu kerete utk kitorg kuar ke mana2. Bagi sekali dgn full tank. Jadi xpyhla kitorg ni nak susah2 pyh lagi kuar naik kerete sendiri. Setakat bayar claim tu ape la sgt. Xfikirke yg kerete kitorg ada wear & tear cost tu sume. Yg tu kitorg xpernah berkira pun.
Lagi aku hangin, dier punye claim lagi ridiculous. Sebln smpi cecah RM5K. Yg aku xtahan, belanja client kopok leko RM16 sepinggan kt Hotel Istana tu boleh plak dia nak claim?? kitorg claim xsmpi RM500 sbln pun dah kecoh ckp mahal la ape la. Adoi, mcm ni punya org pun ada ka???
Dgr citer, kereta baru dier (Mercedes Benz CLK) nak kuar mggu ni. Tp kereta tu nama company yer! So company kuar duit beli kereta baru utk dia tu xpe pulak. Claim kitorg takat RM200-300 tu berkira sgt. Then kereta dia skrg (mercedez benz jugak) akan diberikan pd mak dia. Suka suki dia je. Pdhal tu nama company tu.
Aku belajar companies act 1965. Ada mengatakan company tu seperate legal entity ok. Pemilik / BOD xde hak utk pakai harta company & begitu juga kalau company banckrupt, BOD punye harta xkan disita utk byr all those debts yg ada. Tp ape yg boss aku buat ni mcm company tmpt aku kerja skrg ni bertaraf "enterprise" pulak!!
Mcm mana lah bisnes nak masuk dgn senangnya kalau dia sendiri berkira & kedekut dgn staff sendiri. Org mcm ni pun ada ka?? Dunia.. dunia..
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Raya 2009
Raya thn ni sgt boring. First raya, i was only stayed at home, cooked nasi minyak xjadi (coz too lembik) & ayam masak merah. Then watched TV program. After that layan my neighbours (family nenek tangga). Then makan tdo only that day.
The most bored raya i had is raya this year.
Second raya also nothing special to me. I woke up early, tidy up my room & ruang tamu (afraid if my friends just come & serang me, hehehe). Then helped my mum to prepare dishes for our family including laksa penang. Makan & tdo all day long.
3rd raya only i went out. Tupun sbb my granny & grandpa asked me to bring them to their brother's house at Pekan Bt 9 Cheras & Bandar Tun Razak. After that we went home & as previous days of raya, i only makan & sleep.
Again, this year's Aidilfitri was really bored.
How i wish i could have better raya. But, one thing i like during this year's raya, i can brush up my cooking skills from 1st raya till 7th raya. :)
The most bored raya i had is raya this year.
Second raya also nothing special to me. I woke up early, tidy up my room & ruang tamu (afraid if my friends just come & serang me, hehehe). Then helped my mum to prepare dishes for our family including laksa penang. Makan & tdo all day long.
3rd raya only i went out. Tupun sbb my granny & grandpa asked me to bring them to their brother's house at Pekan Bt 9 Cheras & Bandar Tun Razak. After that we went home & as previous days of raya, i only makan & sleep.
Again, this year's Aidilfitri was really bored.
How i wish i could have better raya. But, one thing i like during this year's raya, i can brush up my cooking skills from 1st raya till 7th raya. :)
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Ramadhan yg berlalu
27 Ramadhan 1430H..
Diam xdiam, Ramadhan makin meninggalkan kita semua. Rasanya bagai baru semalam ia dtg, baru smlm juga aku di'tinggal'kan oleh lelaki itu. Tp bukan itu persoalannya. Aku rasa sgt sayu bila Ramadhan thn ini berlalu pergi. Kerana, pd Ramadhan kali ini lah aku merasakan kenikmatan yg sebenarnya berbanding Ramadhan yg sudah.
Ramadhan kali ini, aku di'tinggal'kan pergi oleh dia. Bermula dari situ, aku mengumpul seluruh kekuatan utk bangun semula. Org kata, bila ditimpa musibah, saat itu baru ingat Allah. Ya, aku mengaku, aku juga begitu. Aku mula mengabdikan diri aku pd Allah. Lebih2 lagi dalam bln Ramadhan ini, aku makin rancak mengembalikan semula rasa taqwa & iman itu dlm diri yg telah lama hilang lantaran 'bersama' dgn si dia.
Berbanding Ramadhan yg sudah, Ramadhan kali ini sgt bermakna bg diriku. Kuantiti terawikh yg aku lakukan lebih baik dari thn-thn sudah. Begitu juga dgn ibadah lain. Aku lebih rajin membaca al-Quran Ramadhan thn ini. Aku juga rajin bgn solat tahajud di waktu malam sedangkan dulu aku begitu malas utk bangun malam. Bangun pun hanya untuk ke tandas.
Alhamdulillah, di sebalik musibah yg menimpa diri ku. Aku tau Allah sebenarnya telah mencurahkan satu kenikmatan yg tak terhingga. Kelazatan Ramadhan yg tak dpt aku gambarkan dgn kata-kata. Cpt sungguh masa berlalu hingga aku tak sedar yg Ramadhan telah sampai ke penghujungnya.
Aku jadi gusar, takut jika setelah Ramadhan pergi, syaitan2 & iblis2 mula menguasai, membisik2kan kata2 godaan padaku. Aku bimbang, aku tidak mempunyai kekuatan itu lagi selepas ini. Aku akui, kerana Ramadhan lah aku lebih kuat menempuhi hari-hari sunyi ku tanpa dia.
Ya Allah, aku berdoa moga aku sempat merasai lagi kemanisan Ramadhan akan dtg. Sesungguhnya aku sgt berterima kasih pd mu Ya Allah atas rahmat yg tersirat ini.
Ramadhan, i'm going to miss u so much!
Diam xdiam, Ramadhan makin meninggalkan kita semua. Rasanya bagai baru semalam ia dtg, baru smlm juga aku di'tinggal'kan oleh lelaki itu. Tp bukan itu persoalannya. Aku rasa sgt sayu bila Ramadhan thn ini berlalu pergi. Kerana, pd Ramadhan kali ini lah aku merasakan kenikmatan yg sebenarnya berbanding Ramadhan yg sudah.
Ramadhan kali ini, aku di'tinggal'kan pergi oleh dia. Bermula dari situ, aku mengumpul seluruh kekuatan utk bangun semula. Org kata, bila ditimpa musibah, saat itu baru ingat Allah. Ya, aku mengaku, aku juga begitu. Aku mula mengabdikan diri aku pd Allah. Lebih2 lagi dalam bln Ramadhan ini, aku makin rancak mengembalikan semula rasa taqwa & iman itu dlm diri yg telah lama hilang lantaran 'bersama' dgn si dia.
Berbanding Ramadhan yg sudah, Ramadhan kali ini sgt bermakna bg diriku. Kuantiti terawikh yg aku lakukan lebih baik dari thn-thn sudah. Begitu juga dgn ibadah lain. Aku lebih rajin membaca al-Quran Ramadhan thn ini. Aku juga rajin bgn solat tahajud di waktu malam sedangkan dulu aku begitu malas utk bangun malam. Bangun pun hanya untuk ke tandas.
Alhamdulillah, di sebalik musibah yg menimpa diri ku. Aku tau Allah sebenarnya telah mencurahkan satu kenikmatan yg tak terhingga. Kelazatan Ramadhan yg tak dpt aku gambarkan dgn kata-kata. Cpt sungguh masa berlalu hingga aku tak sedar yg Ramadhan telah sampai ke penghujungnya.
Aku jadi gusar, takut jika setelah Ramadhan pergi, syaitan2 & iblis2 mula menguasai, membisik2kan kata2 godaan padaku. Aku bimbang, aku tidak mempunyai kekuatan itu lagi selepas ini. Aku akui, kerana Ramadhan lah aku lebih kuat menempuhi hari-hari sunyi ku tanpa dia.
Ya Allah, aku berdoa moga aku sempat merasai lagi kemanisan Ramadhan akan dtg. Sesungguhnya aku sgt berterima kasih pd mu Ya Allah atas rahmat yg tersirat ini.
Ramadhan, i'm going to miss u so much!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Hukum Sanding
I just read about "Hukum Bersanding" in Utusan Malaysia today (11 September 2009). Ustaz Mohd. Farid Ravi Abdullah (he was my ex teacher, at that time, he only a practical teacher compare to know whereby he's a lecturer) said, if we want to bersanding with the intention to only to introduce both bride & groom to public, then it is fine to do sanding thingy.
But, there's certain condition whereby if we do the sanding for the sake of show off till we forget to perform our solat with mix of female & male, then it is prohibited to do the sanding ceremony. After reading this article, i can relate it to divorce issues among couples in Malaysia nowadays.
From Ministry of Woman Development's stats shows that lately there is an increasing number of divorce case among couples in Malaysia. I think, one of the factor contributes to this phenomena is no barakah (keberkatan) from Allah during our marriage / nikah. Why i said that? During our ceremony, there are many thing that Allah doesn't like. So how can Allah give His barakah if he dislike what we do.
First, if we do sanding thingy for the purpose to show off till we forget to perform our solat with reason to busy to treat our guess, will barakah stays in our marriage? Certainly no. How can we bless with barakah or rahmat if we ourselves don't perform something compulsary.
2nd, the article says, during sanding, we tend to do some 'renjis' thing. Initially, this ceremony being introduced by Hindu people. This ceremony main reason is to eliminate bad spirit (makhluk halus to be exact) from bothering our marriage while on the other hand, Allah says in Quran that only He can eliminate bad spirit & to Him only we must asked if we want anything. How can Allah give his bless when we do something like this?
3rd, all the time, we tend to waste so many thing. From hantaran to F&B, from souvenir to small2 things during majlis. There is certain people who put their daughter's 'price' till RM30K. What's that? During Rasulullah S.A.W era, Al Quran is enough for a hantaran / mas kahwin. No need to be so lavish. The main point is, we need some bless to run our marriage. Without this bless, how can we survive? Wasadtiah (average) is something that Allah & our Rasulullah S.A.W really encourage us to do. If we wasadtiah, bless from Allah will surround us.
As for me, i dream of my wedding to be very average. If i don't think about my parents or granny, i would like to have only a small jamuan with simple nikah. No need to do any sanding. I need bless from Allah.
p/s: This remind me of what ex Mufti Perlis said. Marriage which is halal is nowadays so hard to do while zina (haram) is so easy to do. All because of these burden thingy such as hantaran, mas kahwin & so on. To get married nowadays, some already made personal loan till up to RM10K. What is that all about?
But, there's certain condition whereby if we do the sanding for the sake of show off till we forget to perform our solat with mix of female & male, then it is prohibited to do the sanding ceremony. After reading this article, i can relate it to divorce issues among couples in Malaysia nowadays.
From Ministry of Woman Development's stats shows that lately there is an increasing number of divorce case among couples in Malaysia. I think, one of the factor contributes to this phenomena is no barakah (keberkatan) from Allah during our marriage / nikah. Why i said that? During our ceremony, there are many thing that Allah doesn't like. So how can Allah give His barakah if he dislike what we do.
First, if we do sanding thingy for the purpose to show off till we forget to perform our solat with reason to busy to treat our guess, will barakah stays in our marriage? Certainly no. How can we bless with barakah or rahmat if we ourselves don't perform something compulsary.
2nd, the article says, during sanding, we tend to do some 'renjis' thing. Initially, this ceremony being introduced by Hindu people. This ceremony main reason is to eliminate bad spirit (makhluk halus to be exact) from bothering our marriage while on the other hand, Allah says in Quran that only He can eliminate bad spirit & to Him only we must asked if we want anything. How can Allah give his bless when we do something like this?
3rd, all the time, we tend to waste so many thing. From hantaran to F&B, from souvenir to small2 things during majlis. There is certain people who put their daughter's 'price' till RM30K. What's that? During Rasulullah S.A.W era, Al Quran is enough for a hantaran / mas kahwin. No need to be so lavish. The main point is, we need some bless to run our marriage. Without this bless, how can we survive? Wasadtiah (average) is something that Allah & our Rasulullah S.A.W really encourage us to do. If we wasadtiah, bless from Allah will surround us.
As for me, i dream of my wedding to be very average. If i don't think about my parents or granny, i would like to have only a small jamuan with simple nikah. No need to do any sanding. I need bless from Allah.
p/s: This remind me of what ex Mufti Perlis said. Marriage which is halal is nowadays so hard to do while zina (haram) is so easy to do. All because of these burden thingy such as hantaran, mas kahwin & so on. To get married nowadays, some already made personal loan till up to RM10K. What is that all about?
Monday, September 7, 2009
Malam IFTAR PERKASA13
Mlm IFTAR PERKASA. I really had fun that nite. Gembira sbb dpt jumpe kwn2 lama. Jumpe Farhan, Emyl, Chepot, Ani, Ude, Afzan, Xsun, Liel & Nita etc (sorry pd sape yg xdisebutkan nama tu). Masing2 dgn kisah & cerita masing2. Yg penting, all happy news. No sad news.
1st, aku happy sgt tgk Nita (our 1st lady) dah pregnant 2 bln lbh. Alhamdulllah, berkat kesabaran. 4 u guyz info, Nita pernah miscarriage last year. Ni berkat kesabaran la ni. Allah tu sentiasa bersama dgn org2 yg bersabar & usaha. Tgk Nita & Khaliel mmg bahagia sgt. Tergambar kebahagiaan di wajah masing2.
2nd, aku happy for Ani. Akhirnya, setelah byk halangan yg dia tempuh, dia bersatu juga dgn 'si dia' nya. Ani, muka bf ko ada iras2 muka ko la. Mmg jodoh kuat. Ani seems really happy with him. Ani, jaga dia elok2. If ada jodoh ke jinjang pelamin, jgn lupe jemput kami semua yer.
3rd, Chepot nak bertunang lepas raya. Sempat jugak aku meluahkan perasaan aku kt mufti tu mlm tu. Dia ada bg aku sket nasihat. Which i find it really help me to realize & back to reality. Ingat lagi ckp dia, "Kalau bukan aku nak kahwin dgn seseorg perempuan tu, aku xkan serius dengan dia sampai 4 5 thn, cukup sethn, aku masuk meminang & jumpe org tua dia". He repeated what were friends of mine told me, "Sbr Tkah, Allah nak bagi ko yg lebih baik sbb tu dia takdirkan kau berpisah dgn bf ko aritu". Yup, that's true Chepot. I'll remember ur quote for whole life.
4th, Fadzilah Fuad dah pakai kereta baru. MyVi hitam lagi tu. Heheheh. Tp dari cerita Emil, dia bwk sgtla 'berhati-hati'. Xpe, kata masih pegang lesen P. Kereta pun baru, mesti kena hati-hati.
5th, Emyl pun nak tunang pas raya & her mum dah kuar wad. Alhamdulillah Mil. Emyl pun antara kwn2 aku yg pernah 2 3X kecundang dlm bercinta. Tp tulah, bak kata Chepot, Allah nak bg yg lebih baik tp dia jumpekan dgn yg kurang baik dulu. Nobody's perfect. That's golden experiences which everyone should face. Xchallenge hidup kalau xde experience. Alhamdulillah mama Emil pun dah kuar wad. Raya ni insyaAllah leh raya dgn tenang & bahagia.
6th, plg buat aku happy, dorg nak plan konvoi raya 26hb ni. At least, raya aku thn ni terisi dgn benda2 yg merapatkan silaturahim sesama kita. Di samping tu leh aku meneroka rumah dak2 tu nti. Ada yg aku xpernah sampai thn2 sebelumnya specially rumah Chepot yg katanya menghidangkan menu special iaitu nugget. Hehehe.
7th, happy aku malam tu sbb dpt bergurau2 dgn Afzan, Ude, Emil & lain2. Dah lama xborak2 ng dorg semua. Mlm tu sbenarnya aku xheran sgt dgn juadah2, tp yg aku heran nak jumpe ng kwn2.
Ni antara keseronokan yg aku rasa mlm tu. Sian pd Farhan, sari lepas majis, dia demam teruk. Xboleh bgn katanya. Xpe Farhan, insyaAllah u'll get well soon. InsyaAllah kwn2, kita jumpe dlm majlis yg lain pulak.
1st, aku happy sgt tgk Nita (our 1st lady) dah pregnant 2 bln lbh. Alhamdulllah, berkat kesabaran. 4 u guyz info, Nita pernah miscarriage last year. Ni berkat kesabaran la ni. Allah tu sentiasa bersama dgn org2 yg bersabar & usaha. Tgk Nita & Khaliel mmg bahagia sgt. Tergambar kebahagiaan di wajah masing2.
2nd, aku happy for Ani. Akhirnya, setelah byk halangan yg dia tempuh, dia bersatu juga dgn 'si dia' nya. Ani, muka bf ko ada iras2 muka ko la. Mmg jodoh kuat. Ani seems really happy with him. Ani, jaga dia elok2. If ada jodoh ke jinjang pelamin, jgn lupe jemput kami semua yer.
3rd, Chepot nak bertunang lepas raya. Sempat jugak aku meluahkan perasaan aku kt mufti tu mlm tu. Dia ada bg aku sket nasihat. Which i find it really help me to realize & back to reality. Ingat lagi ckp dia, "Kalau bukan aku nak kahwin dgn seseorg perempuan tu, aku xkan serius dengan dia sampai 4 5 thn, cukup sethn, aku masuk meminang & jumpe org tua dia". He repeated what were friends of mine told me, "Sbr Tkah, Allah nak bagi ko yg lebih baik sbb tu dia takdirkan kau berpisah dgn bf ko aritu". Yup, that's true Chepot. I'll remember ur quote for whole life.
4th, Fadzilah Fuad dah pakai kereta baru. MyVi hitam lagi tu. Heheheh. Tp dari cerita Emil, dia bwk sgtla 'berhati-hati'. Xpe, kata masih pegang lesen P. Kereta pun baru, mesti kena hati-hati.
5th, Emyl pun nak tunang pas raya & her mum dah kuar wad. Alhamdulillah Mil. Emyl pun antara kwn2 aku yg pernah 2 3X kecundang dlm bercinta. Tp tulah, bak kata Chepot, Allah nak bg yg lebih baik tp dia jumpekan dgn yg kurang baik dulu. Nobody's perfect. That's golden experiences which everyone should face. Xchallenge hidup kalau xde experience. Alhamdulillah mama Emil pun dah kuar wad. Raya ni insyaAllah leh raya dgn tenang & bahagia.
6th, plg buat aku happy, dorg nak plan konvoi raya 26hb ni. At least, raya aku thn ni terisi dgn benda2 yg merapatkan silaturahim sesama kita. Di samping tu leh aku meneroka rumah dak2 tu nti. Ada yg aku xpernah sampai thn2 sebelumnya specially rumah Chepot yg katanya menghidangkan menu special iaitu nugget. Hehehe.
7th, happy aku malam tu sbb dpt bergurau2 dgn Afzan, Ude, Emil & lain2. Dah lama xborak2 ng dorg semua. Mlm tu sbenarnya aku xheran sgt dgn juadah2, tp yg aku heran nak jumpe ng kwn2.
Ni antara keseronokan yg aku rasa mlm tu. Sian pd Farhan, sari lepas majis, dia demam teruk. Xboleh bgn katanya. Xpe Farhan, insyaAllah u'll get well soon. InsyaAllah kwn2, kita jumpe dlm majlis yg lain pulak.
Happy Ending
Happy ending
When i was small, i always hope that my love story end with happy ending. I thought, love is simple. I fall in love with a guy who cherish me, caring & romantic, then he proposed to me then we got married. How simple love is. But, in reality, love doesn't always end like that.
I fell in love with some 1 that i never thought i would fall into. Out of 10 my Mr. Perfect criteria, he only match 2 / 3 of them. But Allah knows everything. I really hope for happy ending in this relationship. But we, human can only plan, Allah the Almighty make it happen or not.
It is really funny that i'd spend 3 years for nothing. Sometime i regret, but i shouldn't. Allah tested me in His own way. No matter how i do or think, i can't go back to my past time. Imam Ghazali once said, "What is the most far away?" Some answered, "China country", some said, "Kutub Utara". But the real answer is our past time. We can't go back to it so we have to cherish our present & future time.
Happy ending. Every1 hopes that their love life will end happily. Like Cinderella or Snow White stories. But, those are fantasy story. Wake up & think in reality. Not every1 will get happy ending in their love story. The main point is 1, no happy ending, but in different ways. Some like me, guy walk away without any sympathy & think about sacrifice i made. Some because of family barrier. Some because of 3rd person. Many ways.
Now, i really hope for a happy ending in my life. No matter what i'll do, i hope i get the story end happily.
When i was small, i always hope that my love story end with happy ending. I thought, love is simple. I fall in love with a guy who cherish me, caring & romantic, then he proposed to me then we got married. How simple love is. But, in reality, love doesn't always end like that.
I fell in love with some 1 that i never thought i would fall into. Out of 10 my Mr. Perfect criteria, he only match 2 / 3 of them. But Allah knows everything. I really hope for happy ending in this relationship. But we, human can only plan, Allah the Almighty make it happen or not.
It is really funny that i'd spend 3 years for nothing. Sometime i regret, but i shouldn't. Allah tested me in His own way. No matter how i do or think, i can't go back to my past time. Imam Ghazali once said, "What is the most far away?" Some answered, "China country", some said, "Kutub Utara". But the real answer is our past time. We can't go back to it so we have to cherish our present & future time.
Happy ending. Every1 hopes that their love life will end happily. Like Cinderella or Snow White stories. But, those are fantasy story. Wake up & think in reality. Not every1 will get happy ending in their love story. The main point is 1, no happy ending, but in different ways. Some like me, guy walk away without any sympathy & think about sacrifice i made. Some because of family barrier. Some because of 3rd person. Many ways.
Now, i really hope for a happy ending in my life. No matter what i'll do, i hope i get the story end happily.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Still Reminds Me
Still Reminds Me by Anggun
This is my favourite songs currently. I don't know y i nvr feel bored to hear this song. It used to be my favourite song the moment it was being released in 2005 if i am not mistaken. Initially, i like this song because of its melody & not about the lyrics. But currently, the lyrics really explain myself's situation now. How i miss him so much. Everything that i do, seriously reminds me of him. Not even single second i can forget him. Oh Allah, y should i been through all these.
The lyrics goes like this:
I cut of my hair..
Put some red on every nail on my feet..
I think its pretty..
I repainted all the rooms..
Got a cat that i named June, obviously..
I think she's happy..
Friends threw some parties..
I've been to them all there's not one that i missed...
And I've..
Tried to spend my time with somebody new..
Everyone, still reminds me of u..
I tried to play some songs that change my point of view..
But every sound, still reminds me of u..
I've done some walking..
Listen to the people talk on the street..
I don't feel lonely..
I saw some movies..
But your face kept coming back on the screen..
I think im crazy..
Can't make decision..
I could use some more distractions today...
I wonder where did i go wrong?
What made u gone?
How i hate to feel alone..
I've tried to spend myself with somebody new..
But everyone, still reminds me of you..
Tried to play some songs that change the point of view..
But every sound, still reminds me of you..
I tried to look for something that to hold on to..
But i'm lost, i am numb without you..
I tried to find some ways that free me from this blue..
Cause everything still reminds me of you..
This lyrics really explain how i am today. I really try to spend myself with new friends (either from my friends, internet friends or matchmake by everybody), but still, i feel that it's not same as the way he is. I loved him for the way he is. I accept him as he is. I don't know y he can't accept me as i am.
Everything that i do now, all reminds me of him. I surf facebook, i think of him. I buy food, i think of him, he eat or not. I go to pharmacy to buy my medicine, i think of him. He takes his medicine & vitamin C or not. Oh Allah, i really want to get out from this blue! Seriously, my friend said i fully recovered. But inside my heart, nobody knows how i miss him so badly. I miss his voice on the phone. I miss how he took care of me. I miss how he called me "sayang". I miss to call him "b". I miss everything about him. Why can't i let him go totally?
I am to be blame for the failure of this relationship. I really didn't appreciate him. I was easily get angry when he did something that i think it was silly & unacceptable. And i was the 1 who like to sulk till he get bored with me.
I really hope that i can manage myself to forget about him. There's nothing to be hoped anymore. I don't hope for reunite of us, but i really pray that he'll be happy in his entire life & find a better woman than me. He'll live in my heart forever eventhough i will find another guy.
This is my favourite songs currently. I don't know y i nvr feel bored to hear this song. It used to be my favourite song the moment it was being released in 2005 if i am not mistaken. Initially, i like this song because of its melody & not about the lyrics. But currently, the lyrics really explain myself's situation now. How i miss him so much. Everything that i do, seriously reminds me of him. Not even single second i can forget him. Oh Allah, y should i been through all these.
The lyrics goes like this:
I cut of my hair..
Put some red on every nail on my feet..
I think its pretty..
I repainted all the rooms..
Got a cat that i named June, obviously..
I think she's happy..
Friends threw some parties..
I've been to them all there's not one that i missed...
And I've..
Tried to spend my time with somebody new..
Everyone, still reminds me of u..
I tried to play some songs that change my point of view..
But every sound, still reminds me of u..
I've done some walking..
Listen to the people talk on the street..
I don't feel lonely..
I saw some movies..
But your face kept coming back on the screen..
I think im crazy..
Can't make decision..
I could use some more distractions today...
I wonder where did i go wrong?
What made u gone?
How i hate to feel alone..
I've tried to spend myself with somebody new..
But everyone, still reminds me of you..
Tried to play some songs that change the point of view..
But every sound, still reminds me of you..
I tried to look for something that to hold on to..
But i'm lost, i am numb without you..
I tried to find some ways that free me from this blue..
Cause everything still reminds me of you..
This lyrics really explain how i am today. I really try to spend myself with new friends (either from my friends, internet friends or matchmake by everybody), but still, i feel that it's not same as the way he is. I loved him for the way he is. I accept him as he is. I don't know y he can't accept me as i am.
Everything that i do now, all reminds me of him. I surf facebook, i think of him. I buy food, i think of him, he eat or not. I go to pharmacy to buy my medicine, i think of him. He takes his medicine & vitamin C or not. Oh Allah, i really want to get out from this blue! Seriously, my friend said i fully recovered. But inside my heart, nobody knows how i miss him so badly. I miss his voice on the phone. I miss how he took care of me. I miss how he called me "sayang". I miss to call him "b". I miss everything about him. Why can't i let him go totally?
I am to be blame for the failure of this relationship. I really didn't appreciate him. I was easily get angry when he did something that i think it was silly & unacceptable. And i was the 1 who like to sulk till he get bored with me.
I really hope that i can manage myself to forget about him. There's nothing to be hoped anymore. I don't hope for reunite of us, but i really pray that he'll be happy in his entire life & find a better woman than me. He'll live in my heart forever eventhough i will find another guy.
IFTAR with PERKASA 13
IFTAR with PERKASA 13
Last saturday, i had really great time with PERKASA 13 (my batch from secondary school ALUMNI name). I think, we didn't see each other quite long time. I mean, in proper way. Normally, we meet only at any walimatul urus of our member, informally i guess.
At 2.30, i went to TESCO Semenyih to buy few stuff that i've to prepare (Farhan delegated the task to me actually, hahaha). I bought some kangkung & red seedless watermelon. Also items for me to fry Singapore fried meehoon. After i bought all these items, i went to Khaliel's house (our President) to hand over the vege & melon.
I arrived home (Beranang) at 3.45. I prepared all the stuff like mix vege (carrot, brocoli & cabbage). I cut chicken meat, onion, garlic etc. Then i fried the meehoon. Around 5.15, my meal is ready to be served in the plastic contena.
I prepare myself, perform Asar solat, took bath & drove myself to Khaliel's house. I thought, i was the one who is late. In fact, i thought that i was the last one who arrived Khaliel's house. Hahaha. Funny, coz i am the 2nd 1 who arrived at his house. I arrived at 6.40 pm coz previously i dropped by to Bazar Ramadhan Tasik Kesuma to buy chicken murtabak. Actually, from my house (Kg. Jln 6 Kaki Beranang) to Khaliel's house (Taman Pelangi Semenyih) only take around 10 minutes drive.
Luckily when i arrived, Nita (Khaliel's wife a.k.a 1st lady) already cut the kangkung. Then i prepared belacang, onion, garlic & cili padi as the perencah. Actually Farhan promised to bring the bubuk all, but i don't know where were they that time. Malay promise. Hahaha.
Around 5 minutes to break fast time, they arrived. I think all together of them around 10 cars (such a big convoy). Hehehe. After all arrived, they began to arrange their 'pot luck'. I feel like really happy. It was so merry. I hope that we can gather like this time again & again.
We might have our own business to do. But, for the name of PERKASA13 & the ukhuwah we created since 1996, i am sure that everybody commits well. I love this society & it means a lot to me.
Last saturday, i had really great time with PERKASA 13 (my batch from secondary school ALUMNI name). I think, we didn't see each other quite long time. I mean, in proper way. Normally, we meet only at any walimatul urus of our member, informally i guess.
At 2.30, i went to TESCO Semenyih to buy few stuff that i've to prepare (Farhan delegated the task to me actually, hahaha). I bought some kangkung & red seedless watermelon. Also items for me to fry Singapore fried meehoon. After i bought all these items, i went to Khaliel's house (our President) to hand over the vege & melon.
I arrived home (Beranang) at 3.45. I prepared all the stuff like mix vege (carrot, brocoli & cabbage). I cut chicken meat, onion, garlic etc. Then i fried the meehoon. Around 5.15, my meal is ready to be served in the plastic contena.
I prepare myself, perform Asar solat, took bath & drove myself to Khaliel's house. I thought, i was the one who is late. In fact, i thought that i was the last one who arrived Khaliel's house. Hahaha. Funny, coz i am the 2nd 1 who arrived at his house. I arrived at 6.40 pm coz previously i dropped by to Bazar Ramadhan Tasik Kesuma to buy chicken murtabak. Actually, from my house (Kg. Jln 6 Kaki Beranang) to Khaliel's house (Taman Pelangi Semenyih) only take around 10 minutes drive.
Luckily when i arrived, Nita (Khaliel's wife a.k.a 1st lady) already cut the kangkung. Then i prepared belacang, onion, garlic & cili padi as the perencah. Actually Farhan promised to bring the bubuk all, but i don't know where were they that time. Malay promise. Hahaha.
Around 5 minutes to break fast time, they arrived. I think all together of them around 10 cars (such a big convoy). Hehehe. After all arrived, they began to arrange their 'pot luck'. I feel like really happy. It was so merry. I hope that we can gather like this time again & again.
We might have our own business to do. But, for the name of PERKASA13 & the ukhuwah we created since 1996, i am sure that everybody commits well. I love this society & it means a lot to me.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Kisah Comel & Cicak
Comel & Cicak
Comel & cicak. Dua nama. Dua jiwa. Penghibur diri aku bila kala aku berduka lara.
Sebenarnya comel & cicak ni ialah kucing ayah aku. Dlm kata lain, boleh jadi kucing aku jugak. Baru 3 bln dlm peliharaan kami. Ingat lagi waktu mula2 Comel dtg, waktu tu dia baru jer beranakkan 3 ekor anak dia. Kesian sgt aku tgk dia. Dia perlukan perlindungan utk anak2 dia yg comel tu. Mak aku try nak selamatkan ada seekor anak dia yg mcm dah nyawa-nyawa ikan. Tp ape boleh buat, xdpt di selamatkan. Mak aku tanam kat belakang rumah aku.
Sejak hari tu, ayah aku beli kan Whiskas, bg makan pd Comel & anak-anaknya. Anak2 dia, seekor tu itam pekat, kat mata je putih. Hehehe. Sgt comel. Tp penakut dgn org. Bila aku try nak dekat je, dia lari. Mcm aku ni mambra je. Hehehe. Lagi seekor color dia mcm comel. Putih ada tompok-tompok hitam & coklat. Yg ni xtakut dgn org. Tp syg, dia pun ikut jejak kakak dia bila dia pun mati. Mungkin sbb kesejukan. Pastu 2 minggu lepas tu, yg si hitam legam pulak mati. Ni aku xtau nak ckp salah sapa sbb masa ayah aku nak masuk kan kereta dia kat garaj, si hitam tu melintas. Xsempat break, ayah aku dah terlenyek. Nangis ayah aku time tu.
Tak lama lepas tu, Comel je tinggal seekor. Tiba-tiba dtg lagi seekor kucing jantan. Ayah aku kesian, ayah aku pun bg Whiskas sama rata dgn Comel. Kucing jantan ni besar, tp manja. Mula-mula ayah aku pggl dia Gemuk (sbb bdn dia besar). Tp cewah, dia pun mcm manusia. Xmau digelar sebegitu. Dia wat dek je. Last-last ayah aku pggl dia Cicak. Pelik, dia faham & ikut je. Akhirnya melekat nama Cicak tu pd dia.
Aksi diorang berdua, mmg sangat-sangat mencuit & menarik hati aku. Disebabkan Cicak ni jantan, dia salu merayap. Pagi pas subuh dia dah merayap. Malam time maghrib baru balik mintak makan. (Mcm org jantan gak perangai, xlekat kat rumah, hehehe..) Ada sekali tu aku balik rumah. Lansung xdpt jumpa dgn dia sbb asyik merayap je. Yg Comel pulak, tiap kali aku balik rumah, dia lah yg dtg sambut aku. Yg paling aku xtahan, bila aku bukak pintu kereta, nanti dia masuk dlm kereta. How cute! Mak & ayah aku balik keje pun dia sambut camtu tp dia xberani masuk dlm kereta ayah aku. Ntah nape, dalam kereta aku je dia suka masuk. Hahahaha.
Aku ni duduk dgn atuk & nenek aku. Biasalah, nenek & atuk aku ni xsuka bela kucing or whatsoever pet yg exist dalam dunia ni. Katanya kotor rumah, diorang berak merata-rata. So if nenek aku nampak Comel atau Cicak, dia akan sambar penyapu nak hambat dua ekor tu. Aku xsuka sbb aku dah sayang dgn kucing2 tu. Lagi satu yg aku bengang, jiran sebelah rumah aku pun sama (kwn nenek aku la tu). Dia bising-bising cakap kucing kitorg salu datang berak kat rumah dia. Sampai ada satu haritu aku dgr dari pakcik Ali (jiran depan rumah aku), nenek sblh rumah aku ni pakat dgn nenek aku nak buang kucing tu tanpa pengetahuan kitorang. Hangin betul aku!
Akhirnya, sbb dah tak tahan sangat asyik kena perli dgn nenek sblh rumah laki bini & atok nenek aku. Ayah aku amik keputusan nak hantar comel kat masjid lama (masjid tu dalam pembinaan, lebih kurang dlm 1 km dari rumah aku) sebab kat situ ada berbelas-belas ekor kucing terbiar. Ada sorang org kuat masjid nama Pak Teh tiap-tiap petang akan dtg bg makan kat kucing-kucing tu.
Mula-mula dengar, aku xsetuju. Mmg aku hangin sgt2. Tp nak buat camna, org dah xsuka kan. So ahad lepas, ayah aku pun start engine kereta nak hantar Comel kt masjid tu. B4 dia pergi, aku belai & manja-manja dgn comel. Mak aku pun sama. Aku xtahan, berderai airmata aku masa aku peluk Comel. Yg heran, Comel mcm faham apa aku rasa. Dia pun mengiaw2. Pastu dia gesel2kan leher dia kat tangan aku. Sedih sgt. Mak aku dah berderai air mata. Aku amik kamera, snap gmbr dia.
Akhirnya ayah aku bwk & tinggalkan dia kat masjid tu. Pasal Cicak plak, dia xda apa sgt. Sbb dia jenis dtg nak tidur je. So nenek & jiran aku xksh sgt. Dia xberak kat rumah. Mungkin berak kt tgh jalan time merayap-rayap tu kot. So Cicak ttp balik mcm biasa. Konon-konon bila ayah aku dah letak Comel kat masjid, tiap-tiap malam ayah aku akan pergi tgk dia utk bagi makan.
Next day, ayah aku cari Comel nak bagi makan, tp pelik, Comel takda. Kucing-kucing lain ada. Ayah aku dah rasa tak sedap. He told my mum, mak aku dah nangis dah. Mak aku ckp cari lah. Sampai lah malam kelmarin (Rabu malam, 2hb Sept), mak, ayah & adik aku pergi masjid cari. Tp Comel still xde.
Aku pulak, evtime lepas solat, aku mesti doa supaya Comel dpt cari jalan balik. Hari2 aku sms mak aku tanya dia ada balik x, tp jawapan ttp x. Sedih aku. Yg balik cuma Cicak seekor.
Akhirnya, lepas mak, ayah & adik aku gi cari Comel tu, mak aku pulang ke rumah dgn perasaan hampa sgt2. Masa tu kebetulan pulak, Cicak balik nak mintak makan. Mak aku apa lagi, bagi dia makan then mak aku nangis. Mak aku ckp dkt Cicak, "Cicak, mama rindu kt Comel. Mana dia? Mama nak bwk dia balik. Tp mama xjumpa pun dia kat masjid tadi." Cicak tu ngiaw-ngiaw cam faham je ape mak aku ckp.
Tp tu lah, Allah tu maha Adil lagi berkuasa. Tiba-tiba dgn kuasa Allah, sahur hari Khamis, 3hb Sept tu. Ayah aku kuar rumah nak amik something dalam kereta dia terus bising-bising pggl mak aku yg kat dapur tgh basuh pinggan. "Mama, tgk sapa datang!". Rupa-rupanya Cicak bawak balik Comel. Mak aku ckp, sgt cantik diorang jalan seiring nak masuk pagar rumah kitorang. Macam dah ditentukan. Ya Allah yg maha Penyayang. Terima kasih ya Allah. Mmg miracle sgt-sgt. Mak aku ckp, lepas ni dia xkan buang Comel lagi. Kitorg akan buat satu pondok kecil ala-ala rumah utk diorg berdua.
Aku syg sgt kat Comel & Cicak. Diorang la tempat aku bermanja bila aku berduka, terutama masa aku putus cinta haritu. Kehilangan diorang lebih terasa daripada kehilangan ex bf aku.
Comel & cicak. Dua nama. Dua jiwa. Penghibur diri aku bila kala aku berduka lara.
Sebenarnya comel & cicak ni ialah kucing ayah aku. Dlm kata lain, boleh jadi kucing aku jugak. Baru 3 bln dlm peliharaan kami. Ingat lagi waktu mula2 Comel dtg, waktu tu dia baru jer beranakkan 3 ekor anak dia. Kesian sgt aku tgk dia. Dia perlukan perlindungan utk anak2 dia yg comel tu. Mak aku try nak selamatkan ada seekor anak dia yg mcm dah nyawa-nyawa ikan. Tp ape boleh buat, xdpt di selamatkan. Mak aku tanam kat belakang rumah aku.
Sejak hari tu, ayah aku beli kan Whiskas, bg makan pd Comel & anak-anaknya. Anak2 dia, seekor tu itam pekat, kat mata je putih. Hehehe. Sgt comel. Tp penakut dgn org. Bila aku try nak dekat je, dia lari. Mcm aku ni mambra je. Hehehe. Lagi seekor color dia mcm comel. Putih ada tompok-tompok hitam & coklat. Yg ni xtakut dgn org. Tp syg, dia pun ikut jejak kakak dia bila dia pun mati. Mungkin sbb kesejukan. Pastu 2 minggu lepas tu, yg si hitam legam pulak mati. Ni aku xtau nak ckp salah sapa sbb masa ayah aku nak masuk kan kereta dia kat garaj, si hitam tu melintas. Xsempat break, ayah aku dah terlenyek. Nangis ayah aku time tu.
Tak lama lepas tu, Comel je tinggal seekor. Tiba-tiba dtg lagi seekor kucing jantan. Ayah aku kesian, ayah aku pun bg Whiskas sama rata dgn Comel. Kucing jantan ni besar, tp manja. Mula-mula ayah aku pggl dia Gemuk (sbb bdn dia besar). Tp cewah, dia pun mcm manusia. Xmau digelar sebegitu. Dia wat dek je. Last-last ayah aku pggl dia Cicak. Pelik, dia faham & ikut je. Akhirnya melekat nama Cicak tu pd dia.
Aksi diorang berdua, mmg sangat-sangat mencuit & menarik hati aku. Disebabkan Cicak ni jantan, dia salu merayap. Pagi pas subuh dia dah merayap. Malam time maghrib baru balik mintak makan. (Mcm org jantan gak perangai, xlekat kat rumah, hehehe..) Ada sekali tu aku balik rumah. Lansung xdpt jumpa dgn dia sbb asyik merayap je. Yg Comel pulak, tiap kali aku balik rumah, dia lah yg dtg sambut aku. Yg paling aku xtahan, bila aku bukak pintu kereta, nanti dia masuk dlm kereta. How cute! Mak & ayah aku balik keje pun dia sambut camtu tp dia xberani masuk dlm kereta ayah aku. Ntah nape, dalam kereta aku je dia suka masuk. Hahahaha.
Aku ni duduk dgn atuk & nenek aku. Biasalah, nenek & atuk aku ni xsuka bela kucing or whatsoever pet yg exist dalam dunia ni. Katanya kotor rumah, diorang berak merata-rata. So if nenek aku nampak Comel atau Cicak, dia akan sambar penyapu nak hambat dua ekor tu. Aku xsuka sbb aku dah sayang dgn kucing2 tu. Lagi satu yg aku bengang, jiran sebelah rumah aku pun sama (kwn nenek aku la tu). Dia bising-bising cakap kucing kitorg salu datang berak kat rumah dia. Sampai ada satu haritu aku dgr dari pakcik Ali (jiran depan rumah aku), nenek sblh rumah aku ni pakat dgn nenek aku nak buang kucing tu tanpa pengetahuan kitorang. Hangin betul aku!
Akhirnya, sbb dah tak tahan sangat asyik kena perli dgn nenek sblh rumah laki bini & atok nenek aku. Ayah aku amik keputusan nak hantar comel kat masjid lama (masjid tu dalam pembinaan, lebih kurang dlm 1 km dari rumah aku) sebab kat situ ada berbelas-belas ekor kucing terbiar. Ada sorang org kuat masjid nama Pak Teh tiap-tiap petang akan dtg bg makan kat kucing-kucing tu.
Mula-mula dengar, aku xsetuju. Mmg aku hangin sgt2. Tp nak buat camna, org dah xsuka kan. So ahad lepas, ayah aku pun start engine kereta nak hantar Comel kt masjid tu. B4 dia pergi, aku belai & manja-manja dgn comel. Mak aku pun sama. Aku xtahan, berderai airmata aku masa aku peluk Comel. Yg heran, Comel mcm faham apa aku rasa. Dia pun mengiaw2. Pastu dia gesel2kan leher dia kat tangan aku. Sedih sgt. Mak aku dah berderai air mata. Aku amik kamera, snap gmbr dia.
Akhirnya ayah aku bwk & tinggalkan dia kat masjid tu. Pasal Cicak plak, dia xda apa sgt. Sbb dia jenis dtg nak tidur je. So nenek & jiran aku xksh sgt. Dia xberak kat rumah. Mungkin berak kt tgh jalan time merayap-rayap tu kot. So Cicak ttp balik mcm biasa. Konon-konon bila ayah aku dah letak Comel kat masjid, tiap-tiap malam ayah aku akan pergi tgk dia utk bagi makan.
Next day, ayah aku cari Comel nak bagi makan, tp pelik, Comel takda. Kucing-kucing lain ada. Ayah aku dah rasa tak sedap. He told my mum, mak aku dah nangis dah. Mak aku ckp cari lah. Sampai lah malam kelmarin (Rabu malam, 2hb Sept), mak, ayah & adik aku pergi masjid cari. Tp Comel still xde.
Aku pulak, evtime lepas solat, aku mesti doa supaya Comel dpt cari jalan balik. Hari2 aku sms mak aku tanya dia ada balik x, tp jawapan ttp x. Sedih aku. Yg balik cuma Cicak seekor.
Akhirnya, lepas mak, ayah & adik aku gi cari Comel tu, mak aku pulang ke rumah dgn perasaan hampa sgt2. Masa tu kebetulan pulak, Cicak balik nak mintak makan. Mak aku apa lagi, bagi dia makan then mak aku nangis. Mak aku ckp dkt Cicak, "Cicak, mama rindu kt Comel. Mana dia? Mama nak bwk dia balik. Tp mama xjumpa pun dia kat masjid tadi." Cicak tu ngiaw-ngiaw cam faham je ape mak aku ckp.
Tp tu lah, Allah tu maha Adil lagi berkuasa. Tiba-tiba dgn kuasa Allah, sahur hari Khamis, 3hb Sept tu. Ayah aku kuar rumah nak amik something dalam kereta dia terus bising-bising pggl mak aku yg kat dapur tgh basuh pinggan. "Mama, tgk sapa datang!". Rupa-rupanya Cicak bawak balik Comel. Mak aku ckp, sgt cantik diorang jalan seiring nak masuk pagar rumah kitorang. Macam dah ditentukan. Ya Allah yg maha Penyayang. Terima kasih ya Allah. Mmg miracle sgt-sgt. Mak aku ckp, lepas ni dia xkan buang Comel lagi. Kitorg akan buat satu pondok kecil ala-ala rumah utk diorg berdua.
Aku syg sgt kat Comel & Cicak. Diorang la tempat aku bermanja bila aku berduka, terutama masa aku putus cinta haritu. Kehilangan diorang lebih terasa daripada kehilangan ex bf aku.
I need to re-plan my future life
Plan for my future life
I need to re-plan my life starting from now. Since there's no more 'him' in my life, i need to focus on progressing & repairing my life to be better than yesterday. No one can ever do that except myself. As some1 told me, no one can advice ourselves better than we ourselves.
First, i need to plan my financial. I already took insurance for my life. They called it "insurance nyawa". Like a malay proverb says, "Sediakan payung sebelum hujan". This is what i should do long time ago. Since i started working. But maybe i felt like i got evtg, a good life, a loving bf, a borrowed car (my dad's car, he gave me), so i think i already got evtg. But i was totally wrong.
Other than my insurance nyawa, i also plan to open my ASB account. Now, i am considering to open an account (either CIMB or Bank Islam) as my saving account. But, no ATM card. Only account book. This is to ensure that i dont simply withdraw my money whenever i desperately need them.
Second step, i am going to get membership at fitness centre. I want to be elegant, slim, stylish & sophisticated. This is not bcoz i desperately need to tackle a handsome man. No no no. But this is for myself. I wanna look pretty but healthy. If only pretty but not healty, it's not worth it at all. I am planning to be a member of fitness centre. At least, i want to go to exercise 3 times a week, each time at least 1 hour.
I also planning to buy a new car. My dad's waja which i use now already 5 years. My dad also asked me to trade in the car & replace it with new car. I am considering between Persona or Vios. But of coz, i need to ikat perut a bit if i take Vios, its obvious. I did some survye that day & for 9 years of loan, i need to pay around RM700++. Its ok, i still thinking & considering a few thing b4 buying it.
Next step, i am surveying house for sale around Kajang-Cheras-Semenyih area. My friend suggested Puchong or Seri Kembangan, but the price more expensive than 3 area above. Some also asked me to consider at Nilai. I think i like the idea. I think property at Nilai now also a good investment. There are many factories built there & many of employers are searching for rental house to give to their workers. But i need to consider Nilai from my workplace also. If i bought house there, the house maybe for rental, not for me to occupy the house myself.
Then, this is the thing that i really wanted to do, but i couldn't do it b4. I wanna further my study. I wanna take master degree. At least, with master, i can apply as a lecturer. That is my dream job. I need to discuss with my family & my employer on this part. I can't take it parttimely coz my work stops me from furthering study part time. I need to study my financial in order to take the masters full time.
And in the meantime, i also eager to perform my Umrah. I plan if i can't go end of this year, i must go somewhere next year. The point here is, with who should i go? My boss said, i can't go alone. It will be better if i can go by group. Seriously, i think i am ready to perform Umrah & can't wait to go to Makkah, holy land of the Almighty Allah.
I hope that all that i plan will become dream come true. At least i wanna achieve all above b4 i reach 30. Pls pray for me. Insya Allah.
I need to re-plan my life starting from now. Since there's no more 'him' in my life, i need to focus on progressing & repairing my life to be better than yesterday. No one can ever do that except myself. As some1 told me, no one can advice ourselves better than we ourselves.
First, i need to plan my financial. I already took insurance for my life. They called it "insurance nyawa". Like a malay proverb says, "Sediakan payung sebelum hujan". This is what i should do long time ago. Since i started working. But maybe i felt like i got evtg, a good life, a loving bf, a borrowed car (my dad's car, he gave me), so i think i already got evtg. But i was totally wrong.
Other than my insurance nyawa, i also plan to open my ASB account. Now, i am considering to open an account (either CIMB or Bank Islam) as my saving account. But, no ATM card. Only account book. This is to ensure that i dont simply withdraw my money whenever i desperately need them.
Second step, i am going to get membership at fitness centre. I want to be elegant, slim, stylish & sophisticated. This is not bcoz i desperately need to tackle a handsome man. No no no. But this is for myself. I wanna look pretty but healthy. If only pretty but not healty, it's not worth it at all. I am planning to be a member of fitness centre. At least, i want to go to exercise 3 times a week, each time at least 1 hour.
I also planning to buy a new car. My dad's waja which i use now already 5 years. My dad also asked me to trade in the car & replace it with new car. I am considering between Persona or Vios. But of coz, i need to ikat perut a bit if i take Vios, its obvious. I did some survye that day & for 9 years of loan, i need to pay around RM700++. Its ok, i still thinking & considering a few thing b4 buying it.
Next step, i am surveying house for sale around Kajang-Cheras-Semenyih area. My friend suggested Puchong or Seri Kembangan, but the price more expensive than 3 area above. Some also asked me to consider at Nilai. I think i like the idea. I think property at Nilai now also a good investment. There are many factories built there & many of employers are searching for rental house to give to their workers. But i need to consider Nilai from my workplace also. If i bought house there, the house maybe for rental, not for me to occupy the house myself.
Then, this is the thing that i really wanted to do, but i couldn't do it b4. I wanna further my study. I wanna take master degree. At least, with master, i can apply as a lecturer. That is my dream job. I need to discuss with my family & my employer on this part. I can't take it parttimely coz my work stops me from furthering study part time. I need to study my financial in order to take the masters full time.
And in the meantime, i also eager to perform my Umrah. I plan if i can't go end of this year, i must go somewhere next year. The point here is, with who should i go? My boss said, i can't go alone. It will be better if i can go by group. Seriously, i think i am ready to perform Umrah & can't wait to go to Makkah, holy land of the Almighty Allah.
I hope that all that i plan will become dream come true. At least i wanna achieve all above b4 i reach 30. Pls pray for me. Insya Allah.
Ramadhan 1430H
1 Ramadhan 1430H
I'll remember this for whole of my life. I broke up fr my relationship with my 1st love, Mr. Kamarul Izham Musa. I thought, he was the one who Allah created for me. But unfortunately, he's not. Only Allah know's how my heart broke.
I still remember, how we met. I saw him 'viewed my profile' at Friendster in July 2006. But i ignore him. 1 week later, i chatted to one of his former housemate name Palie. All went well that time. Few days after that, Palie online again, but suprisingly, he didn't buzz me. So i juz ignore him. Few minutes later, Palie buzzed me. But, i was a bit suprised when he asked, "Awak ni siapa yer?". I wondered y he asked me that question though we chatted few days ago. Then i said to him, "Awak xingat ke? kite chat few days ago". He replied, "Owh, sorry, sy bukan Palie, sy housemate Palie, Kamarul. Sy guna nick dia". No wonder.
Then he said he wanted to offline & signed in with his own nick. I waited for him, then suddenly a nickname called kamarulkim83 added me. We chatted quite long hour with him. I find him really down to earth, honest & sincere. Something made me wanna have some chat with him more & more.
After several time chatted tru YM & Friendster, he finally asked me to meet him. I still remember, he was supposed to go to Johor, he got BTN course there. He emphasized on meeting me eventhough he juz got back from Johor & i know he was really tired that time. But because he insisted, so i agreed. Actually, i am not really into him that time. Coz i got another choice of guy who cucuk jarum me that time. :)
9 September 2006. I still remember. He came with his housemate motorcycle he borrowed. I pretended that i got nothing, got no car all. I ride the motor with him. I don't know why, after i saw his face, i think something happened to my heart. It beat faster than usual. There's something about this guy that attracted me.
We went to Hakim Baru Seksyen 7. Not really talk. He's shy i guess. Also pendiam. Only me talked a lot that time. After a while, i asked to leave & went back. He said ok, he paid for my drink. He sent me back. He went back to his house. After i arrived house, i decided to text him saying thanks. I got a feeling that he wouldn't want to reply my text but luckily he replied & said he already arrived home safely.
From that moment, we were getting close. He's really nice, gentle, patient & treated me well. He was with me all the time during hard & easy time. Me too, whenever he got sick, i sent him to clinic. He asked me to send him to office, i did that. We were really lost in our own sweet world. We getting so close during Ramadhan 1426H (2006). He brought me to sahur if i didn't have any food at my rental house. Then i brought him to bazar Ramadhan everyday to buy buka puasa together.
But, 1 Ramadhan 1430H, everything was not going to be the same again. He totally changed. I already noticed that he changed these 3 month lately. He's not the 1 that i knew on 2006. I don't know. He said that i am a hot tempered pe
rson & like to sulk a lot. He can't stand with my attitude. Or else, he got new woman, who know rite?
I'll remember this for whole of my life. I broke up fr my relationship with my 1st love, Mr. Kamarul Izham Musa. I thought, he was the one who Allah created for me. But unfortunately, he's not. Only Allah know's how my heart broke.
I still remember, how we met. I saw him 'viewed my profile' at Friendster in July 2006. But i ignore him. 1 week later, i chatted to one of his former housemate name Palie. All went well that time. Few days after that, Palie online again, but suprisingly, he didn't buzz me. So i juz ignore him. Few minutes later, Palie buzzed me. But, i was a bit suprised when he asked, "Awak ni siapa yer?". I wondered y he asked me that question though we chatted few days ago. Then i said to him, "Awak xingat ke? kite chat few days ago". He replied, "Owh, sorry, sy bukan Palie, sy housemate Palie, Kamarul. Sy guna nick dia". No wonder.
Then he said he wanted to offline & signed in with his own nick. I waited for him, then suddenly a nickname called kamarulkim83 added me. We chatted quite long hour with him. I find him really down to earth, honest & sincere. Something made me wanna have some chat with him more & more.
After several time chatted tru YM & Friendster, he finally asked me to meet him. I still remember, he was supposed to go to Johor, he got BTN course there. He emphasized on meeting me eventhough he juz got back from Johor & i know he was really tired that time. But because he insisted, so i agreed. Actually, i am not really into him that time. Coz i got another choice of guy who cucuk jarum me that time. :)
9 September 2006. I still remember. He came with his housemate motorcycle he borrowed. I pretended that i got nothing, got no car all. I ride the motor with him. I don't know why, after i saw his face, i think something happened to my heart. It beat faster than usual. There's something about this guy that attracted me.
We went to Hakim Baru Seksyen 7. Not really talk. He's shy i guess. Also pendiam. Only me talked a lot that time. After a while, i asked to leave & went back. He said ok, he paid for my drink. He sent me back. He went back to his house. After i arrived house, i decided to text him saying thanks. I got a feeling that he wouldn't want to reply my text but luckily he replied & said he already arrived home safely.
From that moment, we were getting close. He's really nice, gentle, patient & treated me well. He was with me all the time during hard & easy time. Me too, whenever he got sick, i sent him to clinic. He asked me to send him to office, i did that. We were really lost in our own sweet world. We getting so close during Ramadhan 1426H (2006). He brought me to sahur if i didn't have any food at my rental house. Then i brought him to bazar Ramadhan everyday to buy buka puasa together.
But, 1 Ramadhan 1430H, everything was not going to be the same again. He totally changed. I already noticed that he changed these 3 month lately. He's not the 1 that i knew on 2006. I don't know. He said that i am a hot tempered pe
rson & like to sulk a lot. He can't stand with my attitude. Or else, he got new woman, who know rite? So, this is me now. I am single & hoping for the best in my life in future. Being dumped with a man that i really love. But its ok, my friends are with me. One quote that really inspire me, "Allah tarik nikmat yg sedikit untuk berikan kita nikmat yg lebih besar". As for now, i am happy being a single lady eventhough i am 26 (going to be 27 already) & all my good friends already happily married & engaged, but who care. As long as i don't bother anybody, that its fine for me.
But, deep down from my heart, i really hope that i will find a better guy. Who can accept me as i am. Who can guide me world & hereafter. insyaAllah.
But, deep down from my heart, i really hope that i will find a better guy. Who can accept me as i am. Who can guide me world & hereafter. insyaAllah.
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