Real reason..

Lelaki mmg mcm ni ke? Really complicated..

Dia confess yg dia syg kat aku. Syg tu lebih dari seorg kawan, but not to the extend of being a girlfriend. Bila aku tanya, "Antara i dgn ur Mazda 3, mana u lagi syg?". He replied, "Of coz la u dear. My Mazda if xcident, ada insurance boleh cover blk, tp if u if kena langgar ke, patah riok ke, mana boleh nak tukar ganti lg."

Then bila aku tanya, apa perasaan dia pd aku? He replied, "I suka dkt u sgt. In fact i syg pd u. U know what, i tak sabar2 nak jumpe u everytime kita ada date. & 2 b frank, i am always thinking of u. Then, u rasa i syg u ke x?". I replied, "yeah, but i think not to the extend of making me ur gf". Dia diam.

According to him, his family is really choosy, fussy & firm. Aku bukan lah antara pilihan mak ayah dia. That's for sure. One more thing he said, "I am really demanding, if once i nak u jd gf i, i will turn u from a cute girl to a gorgeus girl. I wont leave u alone. Everywhere i go, u must follow & be there for me. Once u jadi gf i, u akan rasa sgt terkongkong."

Now i know. I am not his type. Selama ni aku rasa mcm bodoh sgt biarkan dia kuasai perasaan aku. Selama ni, aku sentiasa jadi a good listener to him. In fact masa dia dgn ex gf dia. I feel fooled. Im not that gorgeus to sit next to him as gf.

Selama ni aku ke yg terhegeh2 mengharapkan kasih yg belum tentu ada. Saat2 mcm ni, i miss my K. Walaupun K xberharta, tp kasih syg dia dah cukup utk buat aku bahagia. Moga Allah limpahkan rahmat & bahagiakan K di mana sahaja dia berada.

Xde ape2 lg yg boleh aku harapkan. Semoga aku tabah menghadapi hidup yg Allah tentukan utk aku. ALONE for sure.

(-_-)